“… His mercies begin afresh each morning.”
Lamentations 3:23 NLT
I’m starting to make this verse my morning mantra. You’d think someone who grew up in a Christian household wouldn’t have a whole lot of major regrets in her past, but that isn’t always the case.
We are told that when we accept Jesus we are a new creation. That we are set apart to be in the world but not OF the world. The thing is, that doesn’t mean we are free of our extremely human inclinations. Just because we now have the power to resist temptations, it doesn’t always mean we do.
After getting out on my own, and being in the world without the protection of being surrounded by other Christians, it was very easy to start living as if I wasn’t a Christian at all. Heck, it’s WAY easier to NOT live a Christian life. There is NO resistance there, no rejection, no struggle. You are pretty much embraced… just so long as you never mention what you believe.
Having a kid has really gotten me examining my own actions. What am I listening to during the day? Are these lyrics I want my sweet little baby singing? What phrasing am I using when I’m frustrated? I KNOW I don’t want C copying me there! How am I responding to stress? Am I showing baby C through my actions that I’m turning to God, or am I showing a lack of faith by worrying about everything?
Am I a living example of a new creation, or am I still living like I’m a slave to my sinful nature?
Man, does your whole life look different when you start wondering what those little eyes see and those little ears hear.
I can’t change how I lived in the past, and regret does not glorify God. All I can do is admit I was wrong, ask for forgiveness, and try to do better now.
Which sounds easy but let me tell you, it’s a good thing God’s mercies are new each morning.
For every “son of a biscuit eater” and “ Jiminy cricket” I use, there is still plenty of the phrases they are replacing. It’s my hope that by the time C is old enough to start seeing a pattern in my behavior, the pattern is much more “gosh darn it” than the alternative.
Nothing like becoming a parent to help you realize how increasingly lost you are without God!
Thankfully, “And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.”
Romans 8:26 NLT
It’s amazing that in the very midst of realizing how weak I really am, God gives me hope and a reminder that even my weakness can be used for His glory: “Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.”
2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT
I’m pretty determined, for C’s sake, to start living as a new creation, someone who is in the world but not of the world. Meanwhile, I’m thanking God that His mercies are new so I can start each day fresh as I try again.